: : : laugh all you want
I have gone to find myself. If I get back before I return, keep me here.
24 march 2005 at
this entry is 'bout a day that sucked.
< Palisade. and there I was at fourteen - spinning with my arms out like a scarecrow; walking down monroe to the park, and dancing up madison. With my eyes closed, your feet sounded like a symphony of strings (you picked me up, and whispered: "forever", like a secret in my ear). to smile (like it caused the grass to bend). the warm wind and these memories are gifts that I could never comprehend. i died that day. but something was born inside of me that I cannot explain away. >
it begins here:
on tues, i had a fever, i duno how the hell i got it, but i just did.so i did not go to school on wed.it was good. no zuowen ban for me =) i tink zuowen ban is really a waste of time somehow cos nothing goes into my already DEAD brain in the afternoon. but i went for tuition that night..
next day. chinese test was RATHER bad cos i forgot how to write some of the words.the next horror was ( stupid, i dunno how to BOLD the words )
MUSIC EXCHANGE
let me reassure something important.
PL band CAN CAN CAN play! but hell, we've got a problem. STAGE FRIGHT! argh!!! why why why why why. PL band has never been like, GOOD. why why why. i can still remember vaguely.2 years ago, all my seniors cried cos we got a silver. but it was an improvement from the previous SYF. they should be contented cos maybe we aimed too high.
i was sad cos we practiced much. my section was a disappointment too. all gave up too easily. i told YOU all, don't care bout the other bands. don't care how good or how bad they are. just play like how we play and we'll be fine. hmmm but yar, things don't usually turn out the way they are suppose to.
there ARE ways to solve the problem.
1/ more exposure
2/ psycho yourself
the 2nd option is more practical for us now cos we're seriously running out of time. < it's all in the mind >
< it's all in the mind>
< it's all in the mind >!
okayy. 18days to SYF. good luck to us. GOD bless us. i believe that we can make it. we can be good.
i know we can.i know.i know.
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