: : : across the line
I have gone to find myself. If I get back before I return, keep me here.
2006-09-17 at 1:40 a.m.
caught up with joshua. finally i'm talkin to my childhood BESTIE. i realllly miss the gooood old times that we all spent together. me, sis,josh,javier,benny,lloyd. those were the days when we were so young and innocent. then things started to go wrong for our parents and yeah, we all got splitted up. no more sleepovers, no more oversea trips tgt. sighh! great to know tt joshua's now a really God loving dude, so totallly crazy bout God. he's practically unshakeable. today i received an email with regards to my hair. ya. my hair. you know, that thick-bushy-nest-or-is-it-a-beefeater's-hat-that-pisses-her-oh-so-much. i've come to a realisation that although i hate the way my hair looks and all, it's lookin' somewhat better. a time for jubilation? haha. many things have been running through my mind and all, but it's pretty hard for me to get em' out in words. like there's this firewall that i really need and want to break/extinguish? but i just can't. oh wells. (i'm gonna make this so un-obvious) i think she hates me. we are SUPPPOSE to be good friends but, there's just this unspoken enmity btw us. it's depressing to even think about it cos i have no idea what's wrong with the both of us. we faced it once, but things didn't exactly work out. yeah, it's a ON and OFF kinda thing. i'm sure God will make a way but, i admit that i'm just too proud to face it. no, rather, we're too proud to want to face each other.
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